Hey @MissMazuma... You're not alone about sometimes randomly daydreaming of a steady, predictable 9-5 Job that isn't so exhausting. I have been self-employed for the last 4 years as an independent sales person, and though I absolutely love it, there's stress and the unknown that come with it too, because at any time I could lose one of my big accounts and my entire financial situation could change over night. Sometimes I fantasize that it would be nice just to be able to be told what to do for a little while, rather than me always having to figure out the right decisions on my own.
But I also know that i am not wired to be like that either, and after working for 2 weeks as an employee, I'd hate it and I'd want to get back to the freedom I had when I was self-employed. When I dream of a different situation, I try to remind myself that the grass isn't always greener on the other side, and I am on the journey I am supposed to be on.
The last 2 years of saving alot of money has helped to. The more money I have, the less I have to worry about losing a big account, and I can live for the purpose God has created me for, rather than living to silence the worry in my mind. Thanks for commenting, friend.