A little while back I was watching the show Grand Designs on Netflix. It’s a neat show from the UK about people who have a wild dream about a strange design for a house and the process of going about building it. It’s fascinating to see what people want from a house and what kinds of ideas they have, not to mention the pitfalls of construction.
I digress. There was one show where the guy who wanted this bizarre sunken house was talking about his plan, and his wife said, “He’s the kind of guy that is always doing something. He’s terrible at sitting still.” And I thought to myself, “Gee, I wish I were that way. I wish I were always getting things done and not content to sit still.” Then it hit me; I can be that way. I just have to establish that habit. I spent weeks teaching myself how to do that. How to think “What can I get done in this hour I have before something else starts?” instead of “Well, there’s only an hour before I have to go, I’d better not start on anything.”
To my own surprise, it worked. I became someone who was always getting stuff done. And it was astounding the amount of work I could do in a day. It became a habit.
But I’m a teacher, and school started back in the fall. Now I find that no matter how restless I am to do something, I can’t. I’m stuck in the classroom all day. For example, I have a duty in the mornings where I have to stand for 20 minutes and make sure that kids get where they’re supposed to be. But in that 20 minutes, I just have to stand there. I can’t DO anything and it drives me crazy.
I’d love to be working for myself and have that energy yield some positive stuff for me. But here I sit, watching kids do work.
I can’t say I hate my job, but I’m frustrated by sitting here not doing anything.